Alone

"I watch gangster flicks and root for the bad guy, then turn it off before the end cause the bad guy dies."(-50 Cent) .... I watch comedy flicks for a reason to smile skipping the end where the guy get's the girl. Cause I miss you... my shed tears have drowned a box of tissues. Every song I hear is reminiscent of you, every night I touch my lips and wish to kiss you. I've done evil most people would never understand, but to me it's no effect. Yet I walk by the wrong picture of you I cry with my head in my hands, I'm a fucking wreck. I'm so tired of being strong I'm weak. I'm so tired all night long I can't sleep. I can't go for a ride, I can't go for a walk, I can't go out to eat.... I can't fucking talk. If I miss your phone call my soul falls. So I hold up at home with these four walls. I've must have written a book by now but still haven't found the words. Listened to every news report yet haven't heard a word. I've chained myself to solitude so you know where I'll be, waiting here in my own tears until you bring the key. -LIV